I may be going to die, just these two days, I overdosed on some drugs, which caused my brain to lack oxygen and the nervous system was damaged, I couldn't breathe automatically, I needed to use my brain to control myself to breathe, that is to say, if I fell asleep now, I couldn't breathe automatically, my brain was congested, blood vessels burst at any time, I was given a critical illness notice, I am now in a very serious condition, I am on a ventilator, my brain can no longer breathe on its own My life has been a tragedy from beginning to end, if I don't survive this time, I admit it, I have been seeking excitement, and I have been comforting myself that it doesn't matter if I die one day, it is very painful to live