Goddess no Asobiba #5

There are things you shouldn’t know, things you were never meant to know, things you never wanted to know. But before your heart or your body could catch up, you learned it all— far too much, far too soon. How should I think? How should I feel? How should I exist? Even sorrow, even the sharpness of pain, you no longer feel it with your heart— you think it, you study it, you search for the “right way” to hurt. You don’t need to change. You don’t need to rush. Just—please— if only you could stop raising your middle finger at the one who survived for you, at the past that carried you here, I would be so happy. ————————————— 知らなくていいこと 知るべきではないこと 知りたくないこと 経験も感情も追い越すように 何もかも知りすぎてしまったあなたへ どう考えるべきか どう感じるべきか どう在るべきか 喜びどころか痛みさえ 心ではなく頭で感じているあなたへ 変わろうとしなくていいから どうか、どうか あなたが、あなた自身の過去に中指を立てずにいてくれたら、私は嬉しい。